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So, man I love modern medicine (MOST of the time...)...
So these last few weeks of this pregnancy I've felt like utter crap.. can't sleep at night, near lethargic during the day, migrains, restless leg syndrome, my back is KILLING me...and the nausea and indigestion i've had for 8 months now...
anwyay, went to the docs, they checked things, and it didn't look like i was any closer to going into labor than i was 2 weeks ago when they checked..
granted, Krischan isn't due until the end of the month, but we were all hoping (especially me!) that since this was a second baby, and Annie was 2 days early, that something would be happening soooooooon...
and when they said no changes i was about ready to cry, blah!
However, i guess that since this /is/ my second baby, and he is only a week or so from his real due date, it's perfectly safe for me to be induced...
annnnnnd i'm scheduled for 7am thursday morning. woo!
Yes I know it sounds pathetic that I couldn't wait another week and let it happen on its own, but I feel TERRIBLE.. I did when i was pregnant with annie, too, and i swear to God, as soon as she was born and I was still laying on the stupid birthing bed getting my dozen stiches, I felt sooooo much better...
and if there was any kind of risk to Krischan, I'd say no way, I'll just suffer a little longer... but doc says it's perfectly fine.. baby is fine.. healthy, big, strong.
The other thing is that my doctor is going out of town for the weekend, so by scheduling it like this, I know he'll be there for the delivery...
which he was NOT for annie! which sucked.
so I'm all happy.. and busy.. trying to get everything in order..
oh and i'm totally getting a spinal block this time. last time I went all natural and hippie birth.. SOMUCHPAIN..
not doing that again.
ahaaa...
so anyway. next post I make (lord willing) will be with happy baby story and pictures and stuff. :}
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I had an epidural and the entire thing was painless. I spent my labor watching tv and joking with the nurses.
1) Pardon me, the pregnant woman looks DISGUSTING. In fact, I feel SICK at the very sight of her. Does THAT [link] look GOOD? It's NOT a happy-sappy female - it's FAT, UGLY COW. Ok? It'd better die, than ever - EVER! - will look like that PIG.
2) Ooooh, so you WERE enjoying the PREGNANCY? *chuckle* How's your spine? Lungs? Back? Stomach? Felt GREAT, huh? No? Another PERFECT reason to NEVER have a cub. XP
3) My body IS ONLY MINE. If there's something alien inside - it's probably a tapeworm. And tapeworm must be DESTROYED. I don't see any special difference between some worm or embrion. You do?
4) Labour. Oooh, labour! You're lucky since they fed you up with drugs. And what if not? You'd die from pain. And sorry, another thing to be sick - just the very idea of TOTAL STRANGERS who will SEE, TOUCH, DO something with me. Esp. *there*. Dying IS better.
5) There're A LOT babies and kids already all over the world who REALLY NEED to have parents - but don't have them. Instead of helping them, some light-minded people just f**k and make EVEN MORE kids. DISGUSTING!
Let's sum it up. ALL your husband did, pardon, is simply F**KED you. And YOU had to do all the rest. Sorry, the idea of being AN UGLY, FAT, SICK, ALIVE INCUBATOR will NEVER attract me. If I can't make cubs the way the male does, then I won't make them at all. So I REALLY am weird? Hehe. I only HAD to be a male, that's all. So I could f**k some female and get NO pain for that.
Honestly, i'm quite relieved you're not having any kids, cause if you're really as selfish as you're coming off as, you really, really don't deserve them.
Talking of selfish - I give MORE than I can to the ones I love. But pregnancy is, perhaps, the one thing I can NOT and will NEVER give. Because I'll die after that. I could die for the good purpose, but NOT in that useless way.
Even if you adopted, or (like in your fantasy world) you are a male, and you have a child, it completely turns your life around, and if you aren't willing to give and give and give of yourself, then...
like i said, you don't deserve any child, any way.