I wouldn't say I have art block, cause It's not like I can't get anything good out...
I just have.. serious lack of art inspiration.. motivation...
I've become a lazy slug?
The only time I have to do art is after annie goes to bed. I've tried working on stuff when she's awake, and it's just stupid to try and makes me frazzled. She's a good kid, but she's very very very busy and really can't be ignored for long at all... and you know how it is.. once you get in the art groove, you just go... stopping and starting 243945 times is destructive!
so annie's bedtime is 10pm. I lay down with her till she falls alseep and then I sneak out, make some tea, and settle down to work.. really don't get serious about things until 11.
this is assuming i don't get distracted by jared.. heh.
Sooooo i have a limited amount of time... i can really only stay up so late without feeling like a zombie next morning, what with being preggers and all and having a toddler to chase around. 2am is pushing it, 1am is better.
so that's.. .... 2 hours.
If I really truly worked 2 hours every night on my list of commissions and on my graphic design stuff for zamzows, I should have a lot more to show for it.
but suddenly i get there and suddenly I want to do everything BUT work on the ever-growing list....
which is pretty sad, especially since half of you kind folks have already paid me.. like... at friggin' christmas. OOOOPS.
*whimper* I need.. .like... a kick in the brain.. something to jumpstart my stupid art-head. urgghhhh. it's frustrating.
everyone is so patient (yay).. and nice. I'm just not sure what's going on...
i mean, I guess there's no excuse. I just need to do it.
But you know how it is... art isn't always something you can just 'do', like a light switch that annie flicks on and off and on and off and on and off and on and OFF ANNIEQUITIT o.o
*lurch* *sliiiiiiime... * lazzzy slug... poo.
Listening to: nuthin'
Reading: this screen, duh
Eating: rice crispiiieeees..
Drinking: jasmine green tea